The End

You were the first to tell me
What I was last to know
You said "okay, babe, it was good when it was good
but it had no place to go"
Then you were gone
And I've been up all night
With a bottle of blackjack and a bible
Trying to get it right

You followed me down
Through all my layers of resistance and confession
And you hid your hand real well
Behind persistence and attention
You were so high, coming on like the devil's gift
Seems I didn't put enough fight in it
You need that headwind to give you that lift

Do you remember a night so dark and black
Little shoes I threw in the trash of that hotel in Winnipeg
When you said what there is no taking back
Oh, but what did I expect?
It was love but it was not about love
Sex but it was not about sex

But wasn't it good
I laughed until I fell out of my chair
At your "why I oughta"s, your dirty jokes,
your "don't make me come over there"s
And wasn't it sweet, Jimi Hendrix and the sun going down
And if I hadn't fallen for all that, yeah
Would you still want me now?

You came into my life to break my heart I guess
Or to give me strength to go on without you
And I am going on, more or less
But the streetlight through the window
Ceiling of my room
The taste of whisky, fear of god
And my own body make me think about you

Tell me I'm wrong holding on to how I feel
But I know once I let go it's going to be over for real
Tell me I'm strong, it's a little miracle in reverse
Say one day I will meet the man who can hurt me
As bad as you can, babe, but you were the first

©2000 Annie Gallup